Life I Love

Hope.. Once i live with hope and only hope that can make me survive.. I dont know what is God’s plan for me… If i can sing i’ll sing “i wish nothing but the best”.. Well, i just need to be respected.. I need something called ‘ikhlas’ and ‘sabar’.. accept me for who i am, not to change me.. I’ll change slowly.. I wish u will do the same either, however, once the emotion super high, you justcant remember everything! Badly, i wish i coulddo something.. Nothing and no one is perfect.. No one have the same point of view and am seriously saying that respect other people.. They have right to think differently… I havevno idea.. Please love me and taking care of me with love.. No more loud, no more anger, just peace….

Its not out to the earth yet.. Its very little.. I can see you through ultrasound.. I can hear your heart beat.. and goosebums… All I know is I love you very much.. No one can touch and do bad things to you as long as you have me.. I will love you forever like my parents love me.. You, a little creature from my almighty GOD.. Am so in love… I do hope you will be a very best friend of mine cause you and me are together.. hei, little one, you know how much I love you from the moment I know u r in my tummy and from the moment u are born and forever. little one, I do wish everyone loves you.. I do wish u’ll be a good one, shaleh and shalehah, and love ur parents and grands and all people around you.. Having you is such a miracle.. Having you is such a dream.. Having you is Happiness.. Having you, hopefully, can change the world. I LOVE YOU.. there is no other words can describe how much I LOVE YOU.. I just ask one, please do not let me down and do not play with my emotion right now..  I need time to relax.. I want my little one become a good one.. So dont make me turn so bad in these few months.. If u love the little one, u must be more patient.. If not, I LOVE the little one SO MUCH, so please dont ruin it… I LOVE YOU, little one..  grow.. grow.. grow.. grow..grow… I want you to grow and be nice.. Am waiting for that moment… the moment you are strong enough.. the moment you are big enough, so i can carry you.. the moment you love me too.. You are Me.. I put everything for you little one..  am very sad last night.. Cannot control my emotion.. am sorry little one, am not gonna do that again.. I want you to be good.. I’ll try my best… I might sad last night, I may be mad now, but all I know am strong enough to face this.. and I know that my Ibu and the rest of family LOVEs me.. :)

I do love my job at the moment and hopefully it would be like this for the rest of my life.. I mean loving my job and meet new people.. :)  I’ve been complaining about my previous jobs. I dont hate my prev jobs, but I just dont like it. I feel they didnt really use me and I guess they are dumb enough.. :p Well, they can use me actually.. Am not that dumb, am smart enough to handle a job, all I need is a chance and belief.  Well, I kinda love my job now. I love to work with my dad. It sounds a bit weird, dont judge me wrong. My dad teach me everything I need to know and he use me cause he know I can make it. He also treat me like am “literally” his assistant. He never really pampering me cause am his daughter. I love my dad so much. Many people learn from him and now?? They are seriously success and none of them forget about my dad. and am dreaming the same with them. My dream now, I can be very success like my dad n other.  Well, I just wanna say I love my job now. :) I love to see my desk everyday. Its all messed up. Its not shits or junks, its all works that i have to be done soon. I love it.. :) and yes, My dad give me a very nice gift. After a month I worked with him, I’ve got a very nice surprise cause I hav a little one in my tummy. Thanks god for giving me this opportunities. I love my life now and sorry for the mistakes that I’ve done.. :’)  Lov, me

Good mornin Moscow!!! :) its such an honour to be here… :) well, i came here only for exhibition and tmorrow will b touring moscow.. :) will let u know after i came back.. ciao